Listened to this one-tone frequency for about 3 minutes on first attempt and it make my brain vibrate. Weird huh. At least for me coz nothing ever happened to me when I try new things for the 1st time in a short period of time. Interesting.
Tried again today (few days after the 1st try) to experience braingasm again.
Open youtube, search for a longer version of the same sound hence found above post.
Put on my headphone.
Sat in Sukhasana position.
Turned on the sound.
Slowly clear my headspace and my mind become at ease.
The usual happened involuntarily, my head doing istighfar, other zikr and salawat alternately.
While murmuring Ohmm....
Next thing I noticed, Allah let me experienced a tiny moment of pure feeling of fully blessed. A tiny moment of assurance that I'm in a good hand. That everything is great even though my life right now is full of uncertainty. A tiny moment that put my mind and heart at ease. Priceless.
Next thing I know, tears rolling down my cheeks. Happy tears. Even though not a single vibrate happened this time, I'm forever grateful for the tiny drop of that pure moment. I wouldn't trade that tiny moment for the world.
SubhanAllah walhamdulilah walailaha illah wallahu akbar.
Towards the end of 15 minutes my mind told me these 2 things:
1) Tunaikan hak Allah dengan lebih baik
2) Tunaikan hak diri sendiri dengan lebih baik.
Aftermath: Cant help but to keep thinking bout this experience. It was unplanned at the 1st place but gave me such clear message and I will be forever grateful.
Those 2 things to do remind me of IG posting that I stumble upon much earlier and I felt strongly related:
1) Tunaikan hak Allah dengan lebih baik.
This is couldn't be more obvious than ever. I recite this almost everyday yet I overlooked such a clear message and perfectly define every aspect. Everything is lilahita'ala.
So many things can be done to feed this purpose, from the easiest thing to do which is setting my intention as lilahita'ala on my words, my actions and my thought until the hardest thing that I cant think of. Allah tak zalim. He will let us do what we can do within our means. Hence, this is is definitely is my forever WIP. Hoping He will accepts my good deeds and He blessed my with His blessings. Just like what I experience today. It was priceless.
2) Tunaikan hak diri sendiri dengan lebih baik.
Shia labeouf shared above point from his interview with Bishop Robert Barron that kinda give me direction on my life purpose towards others. Sooo, what am I good at? or in other words what is my Medicine as Teal Swan mentioned? I kinda believe Love is my medicine. I love to help others, I'm a good listener, I don't judge and I think I gave practical advise for the people that I care. Hence, they often find me when they need someone to talk to. I can't not refuse.
Yeah sometime I said hurtful things but I'm a strong believer that truth in pain is much better than sweet lies and they agree with it. The only problem is, I'm not generous enough in sharing my meds. I only give it to the people that I really really care. So yeah, something that I need to keep doing while working on the generosity on offering my medicine especially to MYSELF. WIP folks.
