Reconnect with my substance master made me experienced weed and to my surprises i have higher tolerance with that.
I just felt a little bit dizzy so not stoned enuff. i took only 1 piece of the brownies actually.
Then he made me took shrooms and acid and i went to hell of a trip. keep me sane and stay focus on the conversation was HARRRDDDDD.
i felt so sleepy, dozed off and just 'Mong'. he uttered " you need to pick my brain". He dun like if i stay Mong and yes. not the 1st time he told me that.
1st time was on my 1st 'trip'. Guess Im not his good tripping buddy coz Im noob n he is veterean ady. Duuhhhh...
Guess better not to trip together anymore.
Even tho im struggling to keep my mind n focus n the conversation, i remember few takeways:
1) Discipline- Flow- Surrender
2) Ikigai
3) Gluten Breath
4) My Temper
Lack of Discipline is the my biggest misery that Im aware of and have been working on it since like foreverrrrrrrr. I always dream to have the level of Disciplne like Abah.
He never missed go to Kebun unless hujan, unwell or when he was away ffrom home. He never missed solat malam. Never. Like NEVERRRRRR.
Why didnt i get that discipline genes from him ??? haih.
Need to work my ass off to cultivate and ingrained he important of discipline in my life. Guess Im not loving myself enuff. Ppl said Disicpline is the highest
form of Self Love. To my defend, Jihad paling besar adalah fight our ownself. So I believe im a hard lover coz I fight the malasness every fucking single day and
Im still fighting.
Anya...gwenchana... even tho the Malasness is shebal sekya... I know what I need to do now.. and In shaa Allah the fight is worth it and will be over soon.
Discipline- Flow- Surrender
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As i came to know this term "Discipline- Flow- Surrender" and dig more on it. At 1st Im not really sure the flow part but as per my communication with Bing with GPT i finally understood.
copy paste la ye:
One way to understand how to enter a state of flow is to find it at the intersection of discipline and surrender 1. Discipline is the ability to execute under all circumstances,
prioritize what is important, and ensure that it will be taken care of 1. Surrender, on the other hand, is placing complete faith in the process, allowing you to enter a new level of operation
1. By utilizing the accountability and executional properties of discipline and pairing it with the liberating expansion of surrender, you can reach a state of mind that otherwise couldn’t be achieved 1.
IN which then I ask the so call Prof Serba Tahu:
Can you give me an example of surrender without discipline?
Surrender without discipline can be interpreted as giving up control without any structure or plan in place. This can lead to a lack of direction and purpose, and may result in a feeling of being lost or overwhelmed 1.
For example, imagine you are a student who has a big exam coming up. You decide to surrender control and not study at all, hoping that everything will work out. This is an example of surrender without discipline.
While it may seem liberating at first, it can lead to negative consequences such as poor grades and a lack of knowledge on the subject 1.
Remember, discipline is not about punishment or enforcement, but rather about prioritizing what is important and ensuring that it will be taken care of 1.
Surrender is not about giving up control, but rather about placing complete faith in the process and allowing yourself to enter a new level of operation 1.
By balancing discipline and surrender, you can reach a state of mind that otherwise couldn’t be achieved 1. I hope this helps!
Then I shoot another qs:
Can you give me an example of discipline without surrender?
Searching for: discipline without surrender
Generating answers for you…
Discipline without surrender can be interpreted as being too rigid and inflexible, which can lead to a lack of creativity and innovation 1.
For example, imagine you are a manager who has a team of employees. You have a strict set of rules and procedures that must be followed at all times, and you do not allow for any deviation from these rules.
This is an example of discipline without surrender. While it may seem like a good way to maintain order and control, it can lead to negative consequences such as a lack of motivation and engagement among employees 1.
Remember, discipline is not about punishment or enforcement, but rather about prioritizing what is important and ensuring that it will be taken care of 1. Surrender is not about giving up control,
but rather about placing complete faith in the process and allowing yourself to enter a new level of operation 1. By balancing discipline and surrender, you can reach a state of mind that otherwise couldn’t be achieved 1. I hope this helps!
So, in my own words, The chart is how we strike a balance between steadfast in our priorities but also, at the same time we know that the output of our effort is in the Hands of God.
Therefore, we dont :
1) become too rigid on the process
2) we try our best to stick with the routine
3) Understood that there will be hiccups, distractions and different outcomes.
4) Have an unwavering faith that God will conspire on your effort and help you whenever you need it.
As a result: ur discipline got better , your creativity flourished and your performance reached the highest level as you can be.
Now whats left? Walk the Talk.
Ikigai
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When i look back this concept and my post before , there are similarities.
I had this idea of what Im good at and what is my medicine that i can offer the world is very much related to Ikigai.
ikigai is the purpose for you to wake up every morning, as been written in the book title Ikigai itself.
Its a selfhelp book where it gives you idea how to discover the overlapped things between 4 group of principles:
1) What you good at
2) What You Love
3) What the world need.
4) What What you can be paid for.
1) and 2) overlapped create Passion
2) and 3) overlapped create Mission
3) and 4) create Vocation
4) and 1) Profession
The shared point of all these group of principles called Ikigai.
It gives me the idea of my rental kebun, affordable organic food, RM1 or below profit rental home and others.
In a way it gives me idea what my Vision Board looks like.
I LOVE this idea!
SubhanAllah.
My Diet
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Shit Shit Shit I didnt know my breath is smelly?
Gluten Smell. Have u smell gluten? Do u even know what smell is like.
I was and still has 0 idea.
But bottom line is, no more gluten.
bye2 Roti, pastries, Capati, Roti Canai, cakes dan yg sewaktu dengannya.
GOT TO FIX THIS!!
My Temper
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Hmmmmmmm.... Actually, the real actual honesty. I dont know how am i gonna start to fix this.
Need to do some research. Myabe need to identofy what trigger my temper, what causing it, what are the things can cool it down, how i can heal the trigger part,
What is the impact of temper to my surroundings, myself, mentally - physically.
yerp.. need to dig more on those things.
Well... those are the things i need to become and un-become for year 2024.
May Allah blessed and eased my journey. Ameen yra.
